yet again

so im sorry. i feel i am in the need of writing another emo blog :[
uhm i dont really know how to say this blog i mean...all of my thoughts are just mushed inside my body and its hard to pick one out.
i think this blog is really similar to my "time machine" one except different.
i wish i could have a time machine but the reasons are different this time.
um.
i try to be strong, as everyone should but sometimes...me. you. anyone. we fall apart. we can no longer be strong and hold it in.
and recently i had to let it out no matter how hard i tried to hold it in. to move on.
i am still trying to move on. to notice the better things in life instead of looking at what sucks. but tahts hard. especially knowing things couldve been different.
i think i am slowing getting better at least. i hope i am.
sometimes i just completely forget about it. but when the thought comes back, its stabs me in the back with a thousand knives.
some things...they just arent meant to be i guess. the more i think about it..the more it kills my inside so i really need to stop and get over it. well..im halfways there.
there are more people to meet, places to see, and things to experience. i just havent gotten there yet.

i dont like when i start a blog and finish it later like i am now.
i forget what i was going to say and the blogs just feel so...incomplete because i dont say what i meant to.. :[

well... i guess thats all because i cant remember what to say. sigh.
and i better run along and study that bio test tomorrow :[ or else maggie would get a little disappointed haha :]
uhm...thats all for now. maybe i'll edit it another day.
and this blog might be a little confusing because..i really dont even know what im writing because i started and stopped like in between so yeah. :P

i need a time machine

...yet again...

song: "My Plan" - Gabe Bondoc

-jessiewang