WOW.
WOW.
WOW.
WOW.
IS THERE NO ONE LEFT IN THIS F**KING WORLD THAT I CAN TRUST?!?!?!
OMFG.
this is absurd.

this is just.
wow.
i am speechless. really. this is horrible.

one emotion

there is only one emotion for me right now.
and that is:

:]


things are going so well
for so many reasons :] <3

love,
jessiewang.

4.20. tomorrow.

whos down? xD

just kidding. im one who is too chicken.

damnit.

im sorry. :[

what i did was wrong. sorry for making you wait. i told you i'd be there and i completely blew you off. and i made you wait for so long. im sorry. i am filled with guilt and sorrow.

and i hope that things will work out and you'll forgive me.

sorry again :(

i promise on my heart that next time it will not happen. it will never happen again.

it just hit me today. it just hit me how much i have been slacking off this semester and how i better get back in gear or else im doomed for failure.

i just realized how bad all my grades are and i have little time before the quarter ends until it ends up on my report card and i disappoint everyone in my family. especially my mom. and i hate disappointing people.

i just realized that i have almost all B's and its only freshman year.

i need to start stepping up. i see all the seniors this year getting into all these prestigious colleges. they make it look so easy but they worked their butt off for it.

and im already slacking off? what the hell is your problem jessie.

please fix yourself up.

-jessie.

loner

i dont know why ive been feeling like this. i just can't help it.

recently ive been feeling like a loner. everyone around me is ignoring me. i dont know what i did to everyone but im sorry. now i know what a loner feels. because i seriously feel like one.

i think everyone is getting annoyed with me. im constantly talking to them and they might not want to talk back. so why even bother start the conversation.

this spring break started off good. but getting these horrid feelings is changing it.

i dont know what to do. so i'll just wait. and see if anything different happens. but this feeling really sucks. and it completely changes my perspective on things. It's one more goal i have accomplished by stepping into someone else's shoes. this one has not been a good experience and who knows when it will end. i don't. only time will tell. and i just have to be patient.

oh well. on the brighter side of things, i finished up a lot of myhomework today :/

and i feel like theres really no one left in the world to trust. but what am i to say.

recently i've just been feeling

like a...

...loner...

-jessiewang.

conclusions

ive come to the conclusion that guys suck.

except like one or two.

one being my dad :]

i love coming up with

...conclusions... :]

-jessiewang

J.

recently, my days have gotten so much better.

the impact one person can have on me is so incredible. i never knew that it was possible to make me love life so much :] and he does it. and even though i dont know much about him and we're not that close and we've only talked a couple of times, he makes me smile every single time i see him.

and it just makes my day. one good day a week :] haha.

sad much? yes. i know. but to me its worth it. and i havent had this kind of feeling before. ever. and it feels so happy. until maybe the day something wont work out. then i'll be sad haha but so far, its looking okay. :)

yeah

so spring break. its spring break.

and i have a buttload of homework to do including two projects.

im going to catalina for the last 3 days so i shouldve started all my homework. but as you know i am one of the biggest procrastinators on the planet so i obviously havent started yet :/

i am now realized what i just did by not doing my homework. fml.

:[

:]

...j...

-jessiewang