fifteen

year after year passes by. and we get older. gross.
well my birthday is tomorrow. yay.
Saturday: my plans are pretty much nothing haha.
uhm. spaghetti dinner at night. tennis in the morning. the end. yes i will see friends there :] <3

so ive been stressing out this week with all this work.
mr. stratton you kill me.
there isnt really much to say. uhm.
happy birthday tomorrow also eddycao. :]
yeah. 15. thats a big number. i cant wait until i see the present my parents got me :] <3
i love them :)

yeah so ...yeah. nothing really interesting.
happy birthday to all you january peoplee :D i wish you a happy birthday.
dang. i am now...

...fifteen...

song: Fifteen - Taylor Swift. how appropriate :]

-jessiewang

yet again

so im sorry. i feel i am in the need of writing another emo blog :[
uhm i dont really know how to say this blog i mean...all of my thoughts are just mushed inside my body and its hard to pick one out.
i think this blog is really similar to my "time machine" one except different.
i wish i could have a time machine but the reasons are different this time.
um.
i try to be strong, as everyone should but sometimes...me. you. anyone. we fall apart. we can no longer be strong and hold it in.
and recently i had to let it out no matter how hard i tried to hold it in. to move on.
i am still trying to move on. to notice the better things in life instead of looking at what sucks. but tahts hard. especially knowing things couldve been different.
i think i am slowing getting better at least. i hope i am.
sometimes i just completely forget about it. but when the thought comes back, its stabs me in the back with a thousand knives.
some things...they just arent meant to be i guess. the more i think about it..the more it kills my inside so i really need to stop and get over it. well..im halfways there.
there are more people to meet, places to see, and things to experience. i just havent gotten there yet.

i dont like when i start a blog and finish it later like i am now.
i forget what i was going to say and the blogs just feel so...incomplete because i dont say what i meant to.. :[

well... i guess thats all because i cant remember what to say. sigh.
and i better run along and study that bio test tomorrow :[ or else maggie would get a little disappointed haha :]
uhm...thats all for now. maybe i'll edit it another day.
and this blog might be a little confusing because..i really dont even know what im writing because i started and stopped like in between so yeah. :P

i need a time machine

...yet again...

song: "My Plan" - Gabe Bondoc

-jessiewang

winter break

winter break was too short i think.
or i just didnt do anything. literally. except las vegas. okay and i ate a buffet like everyday. no lie.
i gained at least 2 pounds :[
but new years. did nothing. and i have a buttload of homework and this project thingy due. that i havent even started. somebody shoot me.
by far one of the WORST winter breaks EVER. :'[

...winter break...
might as well not taken one and gone to school.

-jessiewang

oh-nine.

so i wanted to post this blog as 2010 but i already titled my other one 2010 so i had to think of a different title :[
but i think that oh-nine is pretty uhm. nice :D
today was or..yesterday. was new years eve and i did nothing LOL. oh except meet up with an old friend jonathan hoey. :] yeah. thats all lol.
uhm. besides that. i was at home all day. yeah
2009 has been a great year. made a lot of new friends. did a lot of accomplishing things. but now, its over. but thats okay. because it wasnt the best year i think. or i dont really know. all my years are just average.
i still need to make a new years resolution. :[
anyways. and oh wow. this winter break is already over. poo. i still need to do all of my homework :'[
well thats all. i hope everyone had a WONDERFUL new years and i hope that you can achieve your new years resolution :D

...oh-nine...

-jessiewang.